HE LOVES ME!!!

“Tell me something I don’t know but should know” 

Someone responded “Jesus loves you”

I replied: “Erm I know this!”

And they said “You don’t cos you have always exhibited that you don’t. If you do, your countenance would be different.”

I spent the rest of my evening thinking about this!

Yes! I guess the constant yoyo of my emotions is cos I often doubt His plans for my life.

No! it’s not that I don’t believe in His powers to do the impossible. Or to do that which He’s promised.

I think it’s more my defence mechanism of always expecting the worst to happen. It’s the continuous chatter that it isn’t ok to be the person I am. That constant voice telling me I don’t deserve the good things God has promised me.

So yes! I thought and thought about it.

I think the pain, the fear in my heart is justified…There are so many things I’ve carried about in my head for many years that I just don’t know how to let go of. Too many people who should know better have hurt me and are still hurting me! 

BUT I realised the fear, the pain, is just Satan’s way of distracting me. After all God hasn’t given us the spirit of fear, and He definitely won’t give us more than we can bear.

 I thought back to all the interactions I’ve had this week… I thought about all the things He does for me. I thought about all the times I’ve just received favour from places I didn’t expect. I thought about all the things He’s done for me this year. I thought about all the things I’ve prayed about. I thought about how He always sends me messages when I’m at my lowest and at the point of giving up.

Yes, my life is a storm, a raging storm (lol I’m dramatic!!!) but I’m not alone in that storm. He’s not sleeping, He’s constantly watching over me. He’s sent His angels to guide my feet. He’s sent destiny helpers to my aid. NO!!! He’s not a man that He’ll lie, what He’s promised me He will accomplish.

I looked back at where I’m coming from and where I am at the moment… Hmmm! Yes! maybe I really didn’t know “Jesus Loves me”. Now I KNOW! JESUS LOVES ME!!! HE DOES!!! And He loves you too.